Crazy

"Crazy, crazier and craziest, those are the categories and all women fall into one of them." That's what my dear friend/ ex-boyfriend Dave like to remind me of all the time. He assures me that I'm just plain crazy, but he always points out to me the craziers and craziests.

It's true. We've all been there, crazy, in one form or another. Obsessed over a man and willing to do just about anything to get his attention and make him fall madly in love with us.

Unfortunantly, from my personal experience it seems like the more crazy I am over a man, the less likely it is that he will return that same interest in me.

It's staying power that I lack and I'm sure so many women suffer my same plight. I have absolutely no problem attracting men. I get hit on all the time. But when there's a guy that I feel it with, by it, I mean "the chemistry", I just can't seem to hold onto him.

Just recently, I've figured out why. I relinquish the upper hand. If I'm going crazy over a guy, I'll totally let him walk all over me, have me when he wants me, be there when he asks even if he hasn't called for weeks. That's crazy and it certainly doesn't help my cause.

That was the old Patrice, the new Patrice will retain control until I'm damn near married. And as a very wise friend once told me "He who holds the vag, has the upper hand." That's right, I'm talking about sex and in order to retain the upper hand, it is to be given out sparingly, until you're secure in the relationship.

There's a certain man that I'm testing this theory on. The progress is slow and painful, but I'll keep you posted on my scientific discoveries.